#Harshness 2

She has had no notion of anything but Karsh, at all, really, since that moment; in that simple act, that one choice, she had surrendered her future to him; thrown in her lot with him in one mad instant; become entirely dependent upon him; upon his attention, his interest, in order to cling on to any meaning in her life. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 33 minutes; 7000 words

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It was better in so many ways, even with the foreknowledge of being hurt and shamed. Because he would be there, and everything would be him; she would not have to be herself. Or, was it that she could be herself, her real self, only if she had the excuse of being his, only if she was controlled by him? [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 27 minutes; 5700 words

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Submitting to him was the source of the lovely. Some new submission, some new defeat, some previously unconsidered part of her broken to his will, lost to her, forever indefensible, undeniable to him; an actual diminishment in what it was possible for her to hope for in the future; a narrowing, a lessening of what it could possibly mean to be Essy. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 21 minutes; 4500 words

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She had allowed the stranger to use her as a whore, because her lover had asked her to. Afterwards, she has to accept that the idea of being 'whored out' by her lover is not as repellent as it ought to be. That in fact, she is mesmerised by it. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 6 minutes; 1300 words

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The real question; the thing she must urgently address, was how, without speaking, how, when she certainly could not bear the thought of having her breasts thrashed, not ever again in this life, the question was still there— how could she make him understand that he must do this to her; how could she ask him to thrash her poor breasts? [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 22 minutes; 4600 words

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It … I … I don't think you can realise just … just how … how hard it has been for me to … to live with the— to know that I let you make me … make me DO that … that stuff! [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 7 minutes; 1400 words

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Her reverie is interrupted by noises from the hallway, of voices, too muffled to understand, and the horrors return with a shock. Strangers. People who have no idea who she was, who she can be, are going to be introduced to her in this degraded condition, and she … she is going to … what? [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 19 minutes; 4000 words

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All in all, reading back over this, I don’t imagine you will be surprised to hear that I was in many ways a confused, dissatisfied and vulnerable young woman (barely more than a girl, really) on the morning I met Ms F. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 25 minutes; 5300 words

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The reason we've been seeing so much of each other, Alina, is because I'm going to be looking after you. And that means I'm going to be fucking you, like I'm fucking Susie and Yelena. It's cute that you haven't understood this, but it's time - so - I'm just telling you. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 6 minutes; 1100 words

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It is all so strange, and— yes— dreamlike, at the same as I know that, through this dream, I am sleepwalking, entirely of my own volition, into what any sane person would consider to be a nightmare. A living nightmare. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 17 minutes; 3500 words

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