#CCJ

The J that was— that grew up, was a little girl, a young woman, had friends, pets, ambitions, likes and dislikes, thoughtlessly took her inalienable human rights for granted— that J is heart-broken to realise that all of that is over. That she is ended. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 4 minutes; 700 words

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But it seems .. important to make myself J do this. After all, that is the point of this blog. To make it ever harder for me J to leave this pathway. To make J’s choice public. To have it define her. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 2 minutes; 300 words

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TJ realises she hasn’t said what this ‘Conscious Cunt’ thing really is. Because it sort of is a ’thing’— even though there is nothing official. He showed J it; asked if she would like to do it. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 4 minutes; 900 words

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I know, this is hard. You’ll always be failing, forever, now. You are a failure. You will never succeed. You’ll never be a good, or even a half-competent piece of cunt. You’ll get older, and it will be harder and harder to get cocks to fuck you. This is all that’s left to you. You’ve failed at life. Because most of the time, you won’t have a cock in you, won’t be being fucked, won’t be earning come. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 7 minutes; 1500 words

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The idea that any of these strangers might soon be fucking her, that she would offer herself to any of these men for fucking seemed utterly impossible. She couldn’t even imagine herself talking to them; suggesting it— let alone actually letting it happen. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 9 minutes; 1800 words

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This post is in the CRUELTIES category. Don’t read it.

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The fictional blog posts of a young woman who has accepted the suggestion of the man who uses her that she should record her journey as a ‘conscious cunt’— a woman working intentionally to continuously deepen her servitude, and at the same time ruthlessly to repress her sense of self and agency over her body, in particular its use and abuse.

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Estimated reading time: 9 minutes; 1800 words

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