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If some miracle didn’t happen in the next ten minutes, I was going to cease to exist as a person; become a piece of meat; permitted life, air, food, water, shelter for only as long as some man found it more entertaining to use me for sex than to kill me. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 22 minutes; 4600 words

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We had all of us, all of us women, learned how to be slavegirls from the TV, it seemed. I saw, suddenly realised how utterly it had pervaded our culture, and I knew that I was more lost than ever— it was not just me, giving myself away, stupidly, so desperately stupidly, but that all my sisters, too, were lost. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 31 minutes; 6500 words

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Harshness 6 - quite extreme: Mia is trussed, the coloured paintball marks counted to determine who will rape her first, and how, before she is pissed on, thrown into a foul pond, hosed with freezing water, and finally terrified with hot coals. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 18 minutes; 3900 words

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She knew just what it was that Weinstein wanted from her, and it was appalling and tragic, but she spent almost no time feeling the awfulness of it; there was no time. Nothing else mattered in any case, not when set against the immediate threat of being subjected to the hot coals again, of losing her mind, losing herself forever. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 10 minutes; 2200 words

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This post is in the CRUELTIES category. Don’t read it.

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The fictional blog posts of a young woman who has accepted the suggestion of the man who uses her that she should record her journey as a ‘conscious cunt’— a woman working intentionally to continuously deepen her servitude, and at the same time ruthlessly to repress her sense of self and agency over her body, in particular its use and abuse.

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Estimated reading time: 20 minutes; 4100 words

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