Estimated reading time: 7 minutes; 1400 words
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It seemed ridiculous that this could be happening, and at the same time inevitable, irresistible, as she let Suzie direct her, as if in a dream.
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I Just said 'Yes'… Part 2, Chapter 2.
The reality of being a whore is harder than the thought…
It was one thing thinking about being used as I had been last night; to accept, in the abstract, in the peace of the morning, looking into the mirror, that this was going to be part of my life; it was quite another to have this stranger tell me, so brutally, make it so clear, that these people were not going to do any pretending about what was really going on, what they wanted me for. I was going to be a whore for them, with no sugar coating at all.
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Estimated reading time: 9 minutes; 2000 words
CommentsThe Story of S Pt11.
Mark has Essy give him her despair, undermining her completely, and then introduces her to a book…
He held her, then, curled on his lap, and said to her; ‘Cry. Cry now. I want to hear your pain and shame, your fear and despair.’
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Estimated reading time: 20 minutes; 4200 words
CommentsJessica Pt3 — a Naked story.
Jessica tells of Her first evening naked for her future Master.
The knowledge burned in her that she was naked for Him; that He had asked it of her, without insisting or ordering, that she had stripped for Him, that He was now looking at her body, very directly, very openly; something — she realised with soft amazement— that she had never had a man do before.
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Estimated reading time: 21 minutes; 4500 words
CommentsThe Story of S Pt12.
She begs him not to be merciful, he tells her something appalling.
It was terribly hard, but she did not lose control; kept her head up, her eyes down, looking at his shoes the whole time, with a strong and powerfully affecting feeling that he was staring at her opened sex, sure that she was ugly down there, her labia so puffy from the multiple abuses of the day, the vulnerability of her position eating into her, the horror of all this being her reality, now, forever; the astonishing neediness in her for it all to be true, the sucking vortex of neediness in her; trembling, shaking with it all.
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Estimated reading time: 16 minutes; 3400 words
CommentsThe Story of S Pt13.
Mark imposes a terrible warning.
It took forever; time stood still; she wailed, broken, lost, ruined, the whole time, not even in direct response to what was being done to her; that violence, that pain, that shame was only the surface of what he was doing to her, which was taking everything, degrading everything, removing everything from her; utterly devastating.
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Estimated reading time: 7 minutes; 1300 words
CommentsThe Story of S Pt14.
She exists through a period of dissociation, only brought back to life by a promise of despair.
She was over. She was sure of it, certain of it until, the day after that first meeting with Francesca, when she had realised that— far from being over— she had been in a cocoon. That the days after Mark had left her, when she had felt so detached, she had been changing. Changing inside— like a caterpillar which had disappeared, gone into a shell, collapsed into mush, and been reborn as something else.
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Estimated reading time: 17 minutes; 3600 words
CommentsThe Story of S Pt15.
Francesca initiates Essy with an astonishing and devastating series of abuses.
It would be hard; she would be degraded and abused, frightened and shamed, but it would be a life of strong colour and vivid contrasts, and she would never have to worry about what to do next. It would not be her responsibility. It was appalling how eager she was for it all.
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Estimated reading time: 20 minutes; 4100 words
CommentsThe Story of S Pt16.
Essy faces despair; she and Luly contemplate the terrors of submission to cruel sadism. The inevitability of terrible suffering. Then they walk towards it.
It’s impossible, isn’t it? To know that they’ll have the power of life and death over us; pain and joy, terror and peace, and that they will use that power to destroy us, in service of their horrid sadistic perversions. To know that we’re going to ask them to be merciless as we surrender to them.
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Estimated reading time: 25 minutes; 5300 words
CommentsThe Story of S Pt17.
Essy is made to present herself to Paul (aka 'The Mechanic'), another member of the Cabal. He is especially unnerving.
Essy’s belly is turning over itself with fear as she arranges herself for him, in a pose deliberately set by Madam to make her own weakness and vulnerability unmissable, striving to maximise her signal that she too is a girl who can be damaged, brutalised, doomed; possessed by the horrible thought that she must try to inflame him so that he will do something terrible to her, too.
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Estimated reading time: 25 minutes; 5200 words
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