#Cello

And so it became a regular thing. She dressed up—just a little; they had tea, and sometimes cake, and talked. But he never let her start without asking him a question about 'the sex thing', as she thought of it. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 23 minutes; 4800 words

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We're going to start with something we'll do often. Thinking time. Thinking time for a girl who needs to sort out in her head whether she really does want to go further down my road. A girl who is going to be asked if she really wants to say yes to something she will not ever understand, but which she knows will make great demands of her. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 8 minutes; 1700 words

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Certainty of failure, strong, existential fear, real pain accompanied by harsh discomfort; jolting, jarring automatic responses from my body, shame, guilt, humiliation, weakness, all grinding into me in their different ways, so that despair, hysteria and collapse take turns in posing the most urgent threat to my ability to service that deepest, most urgent need—to be allowed to stay here—which need is all that drives me to keep up the continual, desperate efforts necessary simply not to be taken down by simple, relentless, uncaring gravity. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 12 minutes; 2500 words

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He had been going to take it gradually—he really had—but she … she has been so … so helplessly inviting, at every stage, that now he won't stop. He has ceased to be able to plan. She is here, hot, open, offering herself, so soft, so compliant, so eager, that he's just going to do her, ravage her, get rid of this thing that is like rage inside him that requires wildness to be released, and not bottle it up any more. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 45 minutes; 9500 words

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