#Askedforit

'You … you can’t be serious. I mean … I … I went with you to that place—yes, OK, *The Castle*. I went. And … and yes it … it was a turn on… That … that blonde girl… Yes. Yes I did … fancy her. And yes … yes I did, did watch her getting … being hurt. But what! Go there — go there for two weeks! Two whole weeks! Be … used … used like that girl? Fucking chains! Fucking WHIPS! No! No! … NO! [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 24 minutes; 5000 words

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'Well, that’s settled, then. I’ll … I’ll go when … when you take me. I … I don’t think I want to have any choices about anything at all, now. Not any more. Is that OK? Will … will you control me, now, please?' [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 29 minutes; 6200 words

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At last, after a period outside time, of impossible, unmeasurable duration, she experiences for the first time the paradoxical experience of an unbearable wait being replaced by gut-twisting apprehension at the certainty of impending shame as a strange man approaches, grinning cheerfully, leering almost; brazen as he looks her body over, certain of nothing other than that she is now going to be used and abused by this stranger for his own pleasure, without any consideration at as to her feelings or wellbeing, and that her choices consist of softly and sweetly subjecting herself to the service of that pleasure, or alternatively of resisting such service, then being cruelly treated until she begs for the chance to softly and sweetly service that pleasure after all, only with added tear-stains, humiliation and welts. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 40 minutes; 8400 words

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She has no choice, now. None. She will be humiliated, she will be beaten, she will be raped, and she will have no choices at all, except for the small matter of just how beautifully she accepts it, how desirable she can be as she is ruined. A hard, insane bargain, but somehow worth it, in order to become free. Free from doubt. Free from choice. Free from responsibility. Free from trying to mean something. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 47 minutes; 9900 words

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All is distant; it is happening, but to some frozen thing, some failed person, some pathetic tragedy, and she cannot but recognise the truth of Anne-Marie's words, that there is in her body a deep welcome for the warmth her violators are providing as they defile her. None of it matters, in any case, for she is powerless, meaningless, trussed. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 13 minutes; 2600 words

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She was not happy, she was not sad; those concepts had no purchase. She had no choices; everything that happened to her was ordained. She could not move unless controlled to do so. All she could do was breathe; nothing she thought or did made the slightest difference to what happened to her, save for her offering herself into the cruelties which were the only remission from the tank. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 14 minutes; 3000 words

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All that matters is that they own me, and that they are ruthless and cruel. I must please them, as best I can. And in order to please them, I'm going to have to become the willing and eager sex toy they require. Anything else will mean the tank, or worse. It's there in me— I know it is— the capacity to give myself over to sexual depravity; to forget everything but sex. Sex and pain and fear. [Read More]

Estimated reading time: 13 minutes; 2700 words

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